Pejam celik pejam celik pejam celik...
akhirnya tiba jua hari ini
hari sabtu, 22 November 2008
last paper, Reaction Engineering sudah selamat dijawab (walaupon byk lobang2)
tp aku redha
aku pasrah je
sbb hanya itu yang terbaik aku boleh lakukan
i did try my very best but the questions were hard
ataupun mungkin mind's block?
ataupun mungkin terlalu kelam kabut mengejar masa utk sudahkan semua soalan?
ataupun mungkin aku x sepenuhnya bersedia utk paper rxn?
ataupun mungkin seminggu suntuk studi rxn belom cukup utk memantapkan skill aku menjawab soalan?
ataupun mungkin aku terlalu ghairah menenangkan diri yang kelam kabut sampai masa yang ada tidak mampu menunggu aku tenang?
ape-ape pun, i'm glad it's over.
walaupon aku pernah set target utk dpt A utk rxn, aku tetap redha andai kata nnt nasib x menyebelahi aku
because i know where i stand
and i know, things happen for a reason
and HE knows the best for me
and HE only gives the best for me
it's OK kalau it seems not on my side
because there's always a rainbow after rain (or storm. or hurricane. haha)

oh ya, it's Sunday already. 12.01 am. A few hours to go and i'm home~
abah's coming, otw. i guess he might be somewhere in Jeli or Gerik right now in a bus.
ya, he loves me that much. coming all the way from kelantan to toronto (i mean tronoh) to pick me up.
even though i can drive home but he's too worried. the road might be slippery because of the rain, he said.
it's raining season (musim hujan) already. we're in the end of November!
Time flies when we're having so much fun.
July 08 semester officially ends when final exam is finished.
Sedar tak sedar sudah hampir setahun aku berada di tahun 2008.
Oh no, next year i'll turn 21. Feel like yesterday i was celebrating my 20th birthday.
It's OK babe, umur hanyalah angka. as long as you feel young and act young and looks young you'll absolutely be young. hoho.

Last words from me: hepi holidaysssssss to all UTPian. see you next sem. take good care of yourselves and plis make sure we'll meet again, esp to cheme JAN06 (insyaAllah). kawan2 yang comel, sile rindu aku. (i'm 97% sure you'll miss me. and me too.) hugs and kisses.

Nothing, just chemical reaction engineering (CRE) stuffs and something i'm afraid of... if u need to study for your final exams, go ahead. i believe that it's a waste of time reading this post. and i know, i'm wasting my precious time writing this post. whatever.. as long as i know what i'm doing and i love it. ;)

CRE. i've tried hard to put my focus at the very highest level but all i got was sleepy eyes and spinning head and tak best feeling (dat's why i'm blogging). as if i could close the text book and go to bed and start dreaming and worry about nothing just like when i'm at home. as if i could...

i do afraid of this little something. something like.. erkk unwritten! i wish i could unleash the unwritten.. If I say it like I mean it then maybe I'll believe it like it's true. Ya, like it's true.. still, unwritten. (i told u, it's a waste of time. go and study you people~!)

good luck babes. good luck frens. good luck all.
HE bless us all.. work hard folks, pray for the best. HE's with us, always.

i should do this quickly. ya, QUICK!

i have record the history yesterday (ape kene laa translet bm stret?? ngokngek betoll la! haha). ok, smalam aku catat sejarah. bukan daki gunung everest pon. rentas 7 lautan pon bukan. menyelam smpai ke dasar segi tiga bermuda pon bukan. (kate QUICK tp awal2 dah melalut.. hishhh!)

rekod tu adalah.. jeng3~ seharian berada di irc (information resource centre aka library). taw x semalam hari ape? sunday beb, sunday~ haha. sepanjang weekdays bertapa je study kt bilik tp bile ari ahad bole plak gi irc.. kui3. sonok gak laa gi irc, sbb dh lame giler x pegi irc.. since 1st year dh stat x pegi (i mean utk berstudy week kt sana n buat bilik mcm hotel).. mase foundation aku suke wat bilik aku mcm hotel mase study week. sanggup pegi irc yg jauhnye beribu batu by feet. siang malam plak tuh. wah3~ i was so rajen back then kan..

hmm, dan mereka tercari-cari aku bile dh seharian aku menghilang.. aku x bgtaw sesape pon nk gi irc sbb: 1) rumet aku sdg tido 2) bt keputusan nk gi irc tibe2 jek, ikut syazana and saey 3) i was so ravenous smpai lupe nk ketok pintu blk dpn n inform and 4) tu je.. kui3

and ptg tuh, aku n syazana pegi mkn kt sabila. mase balik tuh ade makcik gad kt pondok gad tuh suh aku berenti (biasela kan, nk check kad matrik+sticker). kami pon tunjuk la kad matrik apabila diarah berbuat demikian. and, tibe2 dgr suara makcik tuh berkata: 'dik, ok ke bwk kete kusi dpn sgt? x rase sempit ke?' (soklan yg agak kurang asam la kann.. patut ke tanye gitu?? hukk3) then aku jawab la: 'kaki x sampai la makcik, sbb tu kusi ni ke dpn.. tp ok la, x rase sempit pon. selesa jek~!' (smbil senyum sengih) taw la aku comel, tp xpayah la tanye soklan gitu, mencabar kewibawaan aku sbg pemandu yg berhemah. aduss~!

aku bknnye gian sgt nk menaep tp tu la.. bila kt blk tangan ni gatal je, asek nk belayar jek! aku bgn pg nk study, esok 1st paper.. tp tibe2 kebulur. ravenous sungguh. (bkn tibe2 sbenanye, mmg tebiat aku bgn pg mesti rasa lapar. kalo bgn tgh hari pon lapa jgk.. mmg slalu lapa lah, sbb lapa tu kan hobi.. kui3). then aku decide utk gi beli food kt cafe v3. pakai sweater n jeans. pakai tudung lalu berjalan kuar blk ke cafe. otw aku call mak aku. bile mak aku angkat je phone, aku ckp: 'ma, lapaaaaaa~' mak aku gelak2 smbil ckp: 'ya Allah bdk ni, pg2 dh lapa..'

sonok. pg2 dh dgr suara ma. (tibe2 rase cam sayu+hiba+rindu) henset aku tu mmg nk kene baling aku rasa. erkkk. baling bateri je pon ok kot, henset elok lg.. bole plak bateri aku tuh jd kembung cam bunting 9 bulan.. (hiperbola je tuh). nk bkak cover henset (housing) pon susah, bertungkus-lumus aku ngan tikah (rumet) aku mencungkil nk bkk, nk tgk kekembungan bateri tu.. (mmg sah bunting 9 bulan bateri tuh) saket ati betol bile aku nk anta msg ptg smalam, henset tibe2 off. pastuh nk on dh x bole dah. langsung! bile charge je bole on. ape kess? huh! time2 ni laaa nk bt hal. seb bek eQin ade henset lebih, bg aku pinjam 1. (aku call ma aku td gune henset eQin la.. apekess promot henset eQin?? haha)

oklah. kedengaran past year exam paper memanggil-manggil aku.. korang dgr x? hehe

Aku rasa aku dah muak. yes, muak. mual pon ade. feel like vomiting tp x sampai ati.. (penat je aku makan, suke2 je nk muntah plak kan.. dah la aku mkn cadbury td, x sayang ke nk kuarkan balik?? gilerr berkira! haha.) aku dah muak dgn words and sentences dalam lec notes dan juga text book. tu baru words, belom masuk numbers lg tu.. tabah la mata~!



it's true, really true! oh peliss!lah study week. dah penat. dah malas. tp sisa kerajinan sesekali masih sudi singgah. thanks for not leaving me alone in this horrible weeks. kadang2 bila aku malas aku tido. then bile dh penat tido aku bangun la.. pastu malas lagi. tido lg. tp aku bkn sejenis manusia yg kuat tido. xleh tido lame2. xde chemistry ngan tido yg panjang.. so, ape yg aku buat?



studi laa.. nk tido xde chemistry, nk tgk muvi xde mud (ye laa, asal nk tgk muvi mesti rase bersalah gilerrr sbb x studi.) agak seksa di situ. asek2 pk pasal exam (ye sgt laa tuh), x tenang hidup. uhukkk. kadang2 aku pegi melawat kawan2 yg sedang studi. aku duk diam2 kt katil mereka. landing2 dan berguling2. habeskan stok makanan diorang. makan kacang, biskut, dan asam juga. tp asam tu masin (bertambah la pressure dlm kepala aku nnt. uhukkk!)

kalo x silap aku, baju2 aku yg penuh sebakul tu dari rabu lg dh siap di basuh. khamis tu sume dh kering, dh boleh dilipat dan dimasukkan ke tempat yg sepatutnye (of cos la almari yang oooiii~). tp, smpai ari ni mereka masih statik tersadai kt atas kusi yg x empuk tuh... ntah bile laa aku nk kemas bebajuan tu sume.. adeh!

td bukak mymetro kejap, ade news pasal sorang pelakon yg bertunang ngan usahawan yg x miskin (kaya).. hantaran: RM 20 000 dan hadiah sebijik kete mewah. usahawan tuh laki, seorang duda berusia 40 thn dan dah ade beberapa org anak.. n pelakon yg aku x kenal tu umurnya 19 thn.. (ade kaitan ngan aku ke cite ni? nape aku kesah sgt ye?? haha)

aku just terpk la kan.. kalo benda camni jd kat aku (kalau, ok. KALAU!) meaning to say, laki tu kire umur die xjauh ngan umur parents aku. x pon sebaya ngan kawan2 abah aku.. (x terimagine~! huk3) tp orang kaye tu.. nnt majlis kawen sure gempak.. dpt kete mewah plak tuh.. untungnye naseb badan.. tp nk ke ngan org yg 'agak' tua?? tibe2 terpk: materialistikkah aku? and tibe2 rase ade jawapan utk soklan tergempar tuh.. ni die jawapannya: it depends!

hmm.. no comment for now. jgn risau, nnt aku kawen aku jemput korang sume.. nnt pakai lawa2 taw, mungkin ade best dress award (kalo ade rezeki lebih la kan.. aku bg adiah tiket flight ke satu destinasi pelancongan.. so girls, stat design baju memasing skang) ;)

pening. rase cam terhuyung-hayang.
sakit. berdenyut-denyut kepala ni mcm nk pecah.
tak best. dah 2-3 ari rasa cam ni. nk balik~!

pemandangan yang cuba disembunyikan di sebalik pose model kt atas

My top 10 favourite food

>>Mom's cook of course (tgh mengidam nie.. 3 weeks to go, lmbat lg nk balik~ uhukkk)

>>Nasi minyak (sesape nk kawen tu, jgn lupe ye)

>>Nasik putih+ikan rebus goreng+budu

>>Nasik lemak yang sedap (tp x pedas sgt)

>>Nasik putih+sayur masak lemak+ikan masin+budu (nk balik~!)

>>Nasi goreng ikan masin

>>Lauk pauk yg nenek belah mak aku masak (best woo.. tp die jarang masak.. huk3)

>>cake (esp choc moist cake)

>>Mushroom soup (nyum3~)

>>Spageti (credit to wanie.. hoho~!)



10 Things I love doing


>>Mengelamun sambil senyum sensorang ;)

>>Watch fevret muvies/series (Transformers, Detective Conan)

>>Eating (no wonder boncit! haha)

>>Layan lagu best dalam playlist

>>Sitting beside the driver (i mean a berkaliber driver n macho one. hoho)

>>Sitting in the kitchen watching at my mom's cooking. and of course with the sembang2 laa.. how i miss u mummy~ uhukk

>>Sembang2 ngan my family members at our hotspot. it's an everyday must!

>>Gossiping ;) and chit chatting with besties

>>Study when i feel like to (revision)

>>Not to study when there's test, esp short notice test. (urghhh!)




5 Types of boys that I adore

>>Respect me, and elders and others

>>Protective, cool, charismatic one

>>He knows what he's doing and has his own goals in life

>>A boy who makes me smile, feel pleased, and secured of course

>>Pemandu yg berkaliber (aku kan malas drive~ kui3)

5 Things I love doing when I'm feeling down


>>Eating (mungkin epal yg jd sasaran utama. junk food pon boleh jadi..)

>>Layan lagu or cite sedih so that senang nk nangis

>>Tell someone else who can ease the 'down'ness. kui3

>>Sleep all day (tipu gilerr.. aku mane penah tido lame2)

>>Cheer up girl! it's not the end of the world ok..



5 Things I love doing when I'm happy

>>Senyum sensorang

>>Sing a song with a grin :D

>>Call mummy. abah jugak.. hehe

>>Tell frens. besties je kot..

>>Post an entry about it. kui3


10 Ways to win my heart


>>make me pleased

>>how to make me pleased?

>>when you're with me, you'll know

>>how to be with me?

>>be a friend

>>how to be a friend?

>>get along

>>how to get along?

>>approach me, interesting conversation and some jokes will do (not silly ones ok!)

>>it depends on you; how you work out with my heart. hoho


My top 5 most favourite junk food


>>Megi (dan seangkatan dgnnya)

>>Burger

>>Chocolate

>>Ice-cream. vanilla plis!

>>Kerepek ubi kayu


5 Things I wish it could happen soon


>>Cepat laa study week abes

>>Cepat laa exam week abes

>>Cepat laa balik umah

>>Cepat laa abes blaja.. cepat laa keje..

>>Cepat laa............ getting married? kui3


10 Ridiculous things I wish to do before I die


>>Jaga my parents as good as they look after me. Parents bole jaga sepuluh anak dgn terbaek tp 10 anak belum tentu boleh jaga parents dgn baek, apetah lagi terbaek. uhukk. i wish i could do this before i go forever. Saaaayaaaang ma nga abah~ (this is not ridiculous.. rite??)

>>Aku nak merasa maen salji.. cam best je kan.. jakun sungguh la minah ni. M'sia xde salji. uhukk.

>>I wish to gather all my family members (sedara jauh dan dekat skalik) during an occasion. Mungkin mase tuh aku dah jadi jutawan muda sbb menang a contest. So kirenye, mase kenduri kesyukuran tuh, aku nk sume ahli keluarga aku ade.. sedara jauh dekat sile2 la datang ye, kite berkenal-kenalan.. honestly, aku x kenal mereka. uhukk.

>>I wish to dive in the deep blue sea (even berenang katak pon fail. uhukk) and treasure the beauty of the ocean.. perhaps there'll be someone who's planning to propose me in there with a coral. oh no! a ring laa.. with a diamond on it. a BIG one. hoho.

>>I wish to have a reception on a beach. white sand, the sepoi-sepoi bahasa breeze, the serene blue sea... How wonderful~ can't wait!

>>I wish to wear a cinderella-like gown on my wedding day. with a tudung of course! cpt2, sape nk design baju kawen aku..~? (seswai ke ek? uhukk)

>>I wish to have a holiday (honeymoon perhaps) in a luxurious ship like Titanic (hopefully no sinking. uhukk)

>>I wish to be seated in each and every model of cars in the world, with a berkaliber driver beside. And travel all around the world. Sooo sweeet~

>>Tell everyone dat i love how much they mean to me. I wish i have the strength for that.

>>Write an entry, a farewell should it be. Babai sume~ doakan aku diampunkan sume dosa2, ditempatkan bersama orang2 yg beriman, bersama orang2 yg DIA kasihi, aku tenang di sana dan x kacau hidup korang dah.. huk3. sob3. wuuuu.. (mcm la aku taw bile nk mati.. adess!)



top 10 recently most addicted song


>>My Alien by Simple Plan

>>One Step at a time by Jordin Sparks

>>Lucky by Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat

>>Lagu Kita by Aizat

>>Burnin' Up by Jonas Brothers

>>Sepi Sekuntum Mawar Merah by VE (tribute to Ella)

>>Addicted to Me by the Click Five

>>Thank You by Dido

>>Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade

>>If I Never See You Again by Maroon5 ft Rihanna


10 Person I wish to tag
Malas la nk tag orang. Study Week, sume orang sibuk study.. Aku ni bile lg nk studi??

Gilerr laa susah soklans ni.. latar mase: sehari suntuk (hiperbola lagii laa tuhh). Harap2 final exam questions would be easier. 3 hours je for each paper, hopefully sempat siapkan.. huk3

hey2 you~
look at me~
attractive rite.. hehe

tadaaa~ a new look. it makes me hungry. the cake is yummmy~! i want it. i want it. i want it!!!

but something is missing in this new look layout. my live traffic feed and my bloglist are gone. im planning to add some new features here. wait and see..~

pity cik keping yg saket gigi. huk3. mlm td gi cari klinik gigi tp x jumpe, maen sorok2 ke ape.. huk3. satgi nk pegi lg, n harap2 pencarian kali ni berjaya..

Title agak menggerunkan. Mentang2 laa ade test reaction kames ni, title terus letak name subjek.. naseb baek aku x includekan course code n credit hours skalik! 4 hours, beb.. 4! haha. Naseb la jwb exam subjek susah yg bernilai 4 jam.. Work hard baby, pray for the best~ ;)


Ni haaa.. aku studi reaction td, for the coming test laa kan.. utk final exam studi mase gap 6 hari tuu laa.. hehe. oh ye, exam time table dh lame kuar.. aku uploadkan skalik kt sini..

See.. gap 6 hari.. muntah laaa aku std rxn nnt.. kalo xdpt A xtaw laa.. huhu

Hmm. cite asalnye gini.. aku came across these slides dlm lec notes tuh. Bagus x lec notes yg dr. KuZi prepare ni.. aku tabikk arr kt die. fevret lecturer. ok la subjek susah pon, as long as lecturer best.. ade gak smangat nk studi..

gamba seorang budak kecik sdg maen bunga api.. dr. kuzi suke maen bunge api mase die kecik2 dulu time raye.. tu pasal ltk skali dlm lec notes nii..

gamba ni laaagggiiiii mencabar. mase lecture tuh berlangsung bulan pose, beberapa hari je lg nk balik beraya.. mmg feel gilerr laa nk balik raye!

Comel kan lecturer aku.. letak slides bertemakan hari raya.. itu mmg slides yg die gune utk mengajar, ok! x caye tgk la course code kat atas tu.. CAB 2074 - Chemical Reaction Engineering. Biasanye aku jumpe lecturer yg dlm Chemical Engineering department sumenye cam serius jek. xleh cakap time class, sume senyap & fokus (ade gak senyap yg bermaksud sedang mengelamun aka inertsss. haha). Tp dr kuzi ni laen dari yg laen, hepi go lucky.. ade2 aje gelagat die yg mencuit hati ktorang. yg mengundang tawa. best kan lecture cam tuh.. best3!

Biasenye time lecture dr. kuzi akan call names utk bace notes dlm slides tuh or utk bacakan soklan yg die prepare tuh.. ni salah satu cara utk kurangkan inerts laaa.. hehe. yang menareknye mase sesi call names ni adalah: tema nama org yg akan dipanggil. Antara tema yg pernah wujud ialah, politician's names spt Syahidan, Izzah, Anuar, dsb; and artists' names spt Elly, Siti, Khai, dll.. time ni la klas jd havoc, masing2 nk kenakan kawan.. point name kawan, name sendiri x nak sebut! ni laa orang melayu.. huhu

Esok mungkin last klas utk Sepro & Reaction. Sedeynye.. and i really mean it ok! Bosan laa asek bertapa kt bilik jek.. nk g kelass.. (bile ade klas malas plakkk~)

Hmm.. came across someone's blog. Nice background she has for her blog. Really2 nice and i like it. And i want it too.. oh pelissss! lah tenet yg cam siput. Now i curse you jd laju, faster than the speed of sound. oh, kelajuan cahaya lebih hebat. it's ok for now i guess, the speed of sound pon ok, lg laju dari siput anyway. ;) _Looking forward for a new backgroud_

Terjumpa benda alah ni kt someone's blog.. teringin plak nk maen tag2 ni, dan sile2 lah layann.. hehe. dan, sesape yg rase kene tag tu, jgn segan silu plak ekk.. heee ;)


Rules-

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.

2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.

3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.

4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog

** Believe it or not, someone tried to buy ME from my parents when i was a cute sweet little baby. (adj xleh blah~ hak3). Ni kisah benar taw.. mase tu aku dlm lingkungan umur beberapa bulan and i was chinese look, dgn putih melepaknye, mate sepet tanpa rambut di kepala.. really look like a chinese baby back then. (tp skang, dh jd muke melayu.. dh mule menggelap.. tp kalo dlm family aku, aku laa paling cerah.. ngan adik2 aku bolelah nk berlagak cerah. hak3). Luckily, abah aku masih waras mase tuh, xtergoda langsung ngan tawaran si apek tuh.. ade ke patut nk beli anak orang.. buat anak sendiri laa~ hak3. and sekarang, apek tu dh kawen dan ade beberapa org anak.. diorang (abah aku n apek tuh) masih berhubung, atas urusan bisnes (note: bkn bisnes jual baby comel, ok!). Bile aku btaw kawan2 aku, diorang gelak jek.. x caye laa tuh! ke jeles sbb korang x cukup comel utk dibeli? hak3.

This is me, 20 years back. kene pakai hat sbb xde rambut. hak3. ni la satu2nye gamba yg tinggal..

** Aku sejenis manusia yg suke mengelamun. kalo dh stat mengelamun tuh, bole lupe nk tido.. dh byk kali aku xleh tido sbb otak aktif sgt mengelamun. seksa taw! aku bukan kelawar yg berjaga malam, aku manusia biasa yg aktif pd waktu siang.. tp bile dh xleh nk tido mlm, mule la jd kelawar.. susah gak bile ade 2 identiti ni, kompius otak aku nii - konflik identiti laa plak karang~ nk taw ape yg aku mengelamun smpai xleh tido?? mcm2 lah, under the sky gituu.. ngeh3.. aku bg 1 contoh ek.. aku slalu pk, ape reaksi my beloved ones kalo aku pergi utk selamanye?? korang, cane reaksi korang ek?? T_T


** aku stat blaja bawak moto mase darjah 4/5, berguru ngan adik laki yg bawah aku tuh.. he's a gud guru, wohaa~ mase tuh bawak moto kriss kaler ijau, moto baru beli, plet nombor DAE smthg2... dh lame dh jual moto tu sbb berat. ahli famly aku sume kecik2, x larat nk bawak moto berat2 camtuh.. mase darjah 6 beli honda ex5, kekal smpai skang.. sbb moto tu ringan jek, seswai utk kami yg kecik.hehe. 1 thing aku xleh lupe, aku pernah mendaki pokok kelapa mase mule2 blaja bawak moto.. sudut hamper 90 degree wa cakap luuu.. x caye? x caye sudah~


** aku pernah pitam. pengalaman agak ngeri dlm idup aku.. nk taw sbb ape aku pitam?? setitis darah. yeap, a drop of blood kalu x paham bahasa melayu.. ngeh3. igt x mase form 2 kite ade kene wat exp pasal type of blood. ala, yg nk check darah jenis O ke, A ke, B ke, AB ke tuu.. so, apekess pitam?? aku adalah manusia yg takut darah. sbb tu la aku x amek medic. plus aku mlas nk hafal, medic kan byk kene hafal, kene rajen bace buku.. ok2, berbalik kpd cite pitam.. mase tu aku cam terpakse jd volunteer utk korbankan setitis darah demi exp tuh.. bile tgk je darah keluar dr jari hantu aku ni, terus rase penin2 lalu pandanganku gelap gelemat (gelita). pitam. lalu aku jatuh terduduk kt dpn 2 boys, naQib n aizat.. maluuuu gile mase tuh, xsempat nk control cunn.. huk3. then, bile g prep ptg tuh, ade sorang boy dr klas sbelah tanye aku, "ko pitam ek td sbb takut darah?" hampeh tolll, sape g bt announcement nehh??


** aku rase aku ade dyslexia laa.. mungkin minor je laa.. huk3. taw x ape itu dyslexia?? someone with dyslexia biasenye susah nk bezakan kire/kanan, bile bace buku die terskip line, pastuh bile menulis die slalu misread visually similar words (saw - was, speak - break, etc), blurring and distortion words, difficulty to take legible notes while listening, repeating sentences when speaks, difficulty in organizing and writing essays, and some more yg sewaktu dgnnye.. beberapa ciri yg tersebut td ade pade aku.. slalu tertukar kiri/kanan. pastu mase maen gamelan, slalu terskip notes utk instrument laen. blog aku ni pon satu contoh yg nyata, x organize.. suke2 ati jek nk tulis.. well~ name pon blog, bkn essay! haha.


** incredibly rajen. dan malas jugak. ngeh3. kalo aku tgh rajen tuh, jgn la kacau aku.. biarkan aje, aku tgh study ke, tgh kemas bilik ke, tgh masak ke (masak ke??).. biarkan aku layan kerajenan aku tuh. kt umah pon layann study reaction, buku teks yg tebal tu pon aku bawak balik mase raye aritu.. siap bt mind-map lagi tuhh.. nk taw raya ke berapa aku stat study? raya ke-3 beb~ hebat x?? korang, aku taw.. kalo beraya x igt buku.. kan3~ and, kalo malas pulak.. ni lg dasat.. dasat sungguh, smpai aku xtaw nk cite cane.. mkn pon malas. rela berlapar sbb mls nk masuk dapur (kalo kt umah laa) or sbb mls nk tuka baju utk kuar ke cafe (ni kalo kt utp).. mmg dasat, makan pon malas.. haissshhhh~!


** aku garang ke?? muke aku garang? hmmm... kalo ngan adik2 standard arr kalo garang kan.. name pon kakak sulong. os cof la kene garang sket, so that diorang x nakal, x pijak kepala aku.. tp yg peleknye, adik2 aku x takut plak kat aku.. kawan2 (mungkin yg x knal aku sgt kottt) takut pulak.. apekesss?? arituh ade sorang labmate aku ckp "ko jgn la marah mizah.. kalo org laen marah xpe, kalo ko marah x leh laa.. aku takott.." huk3. well~ ape nk dikate..aku marah bt muke garang jek, xdenye aku nk sembur korang depan2.. kalo sembur blakang2 tu bkn name sembur, tu anyam ketupat smbil bt rendang.. hak3. and ade a babe of mine kate, "dulu2, aku takot giler nk tegur ko.. tp skang, terbukti ko baek. sgt baek!" (note: ade unsur2 mitos & lagenda di situ!)


so skang, amizah si comel+sgt baek ni nk tag korang2 kt bawah ni. sile respon ok! kalo x respon, siap laa ko kene ngan bini aku nnt.. Ooopss, terjadi duta breeze la plak. haha.

syazana
aimi
keping
liyana
pokjat
afil
anas

Watch Me Shine
by Vanessa Carlton

Ooh..
I'm not your average type of girl
I'm gonna show the world
The strength in me that sometimes they can't see
I'm about to switch my style
And soon things may get wild
But I will prove that I can conquer anything

So from my head to toe
I'm taking full control
I'll make it on my own this time
(Better watch me shine)

Better watch out
Going for the knockout
And I won't stop til I'm on top now
Not gonna give up until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm hot now so you better step back
I'm taking over so watch me shine

Oh oh oh
So get ready here I come
Until the job is done
No time to waste
There's nothing stopping me
Oh
But you don't hear me though
So now it's time to show
And prove I'm gonna be the best I can be

So from my head to toe
My mind body and soul
I'm taking full control
This time
(So watch me shine)

Better watch out
Going for the knockout
And I won't stop til I'm on top now
Not gonna give up until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm hot now so you better step back
I'm taking over so watch me shine

Oooo oh ya ya (Oh ya ya)
Bet you don't think I can take it
But my mind and body are strong
Bet you don't think I can make it
It won't take long

Bet you don't think I can take it
But my mind and body are strong
Bet you don't think I can make it
It won't take long

Now watch me shine...
Better watch out
Going for the knockout
And I won't stop til I'm on top now
Not gonna give up until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm hot now so you better step back
I'm taking over so watch me shine

Now watch me shine...
Better watch out
Going for the knockout
And I won't stop til I'm on top now
Not gonna give up until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm hot now so you better step back
I'm taking over so watch me shine

Watch me...
Ooh oh oh
Watch me shine...
watch me...

Mase mule2 smpai.. tikar xde, kain batik pon boleh laa..

Sanggup bangun awal pagi semata-mata utk bt benda alah ni.. sandwich telur, sbb cik wanie x makan sardin.. sedapppp ;)

Spageti.. mkn spageti kt tepi pantai~ aku mkn 3x, mane x buncitnye perut aku.. T_T

Kuah spageti.. sungguh menyelerakan, lagi2 time lapar.. hehe

Model sandwich telur.. patut la sedap jek, modelnye comey~ ngeh3

Nyum3~ henset pon nk masuk gamba gak.. ;)

After makan, kekenyangan.

Me & wanie.. asek2 muke terpakse jek!

Haishhh.. asek2 amek gamba jek diorang ni..

Wanie, me & eQin.. try very hard to be fotogedikss like them.. hak3

Peji & me.. agak fotogediks di situ..

Pantai yg kempunan sbb kami x jd mandi pantai.. agak frust disituh T_T

Hello there~ i'm here!

Merenung laut yg membiru... walhal dah xde gaya nk posing.. hak3

We're aliens.. bayang2 sapekah ini?

byk gellsss gambars yg ktorg snap td.. seratus lebeh wa cakap luuu.. insyaAllah akan ade part2, dah x larat nk upload.. n dah x taw nk wat caption ape.. ngeh3. skang ni dh malas nk upload gamba kt frenster, kt sini sudey.. hehe

kredit kpd afil... kelihatan senyuman pakse kt muke innocentku itu.. nape ye??

percubaan utk menjadi gedik.. bole improve lg ok! mmg xleh tandingi mereka yg fotogedikkksssss.. haih~

dah xde stail laen ke?? asek2 peace jek..

fotogediksss. ^_^V

tangga pon tangga laaa~~

yg ni mmg laaa~ fotogediksss^2.. jgn marah ekk.. peace!

ehem3~ anyam ketupat ke tu?? skill anyaman ni mula hilang setelah 5 tahun meninggalkan dunia pengakap.. berterabur abess, xde rupa ketupat langsung! wuuuu. sedeyhhh.

ehem3~ cik wanie kite terer menganyam rupenye. jeles3!!

Mencari diri yang hilang. Ke mana hilangnya diriku? Arghhh! I hate this. The situation i'm facing at this very moment disgusts me. Really.

I wanna run away. Far^12 away. To other planet maybe. Or other dimension? What ever it is, as far as i'm not here. Not here!

DOWN^12. I may seems ok but i'm not. Realli. Test 1 probstat failed, dgn jayanya. Test 2 Safety (yesterday) bakal fail, juga dgn jayanya. Feel like crying but no drops roll out. Oh strength, dakap aku.. hug me like you did back during the good old days. hug me like u'll never let me go. hug me tight. plis3!

i want the lost amizah back. return her to me. plis3! how i wish things to turn better. good at least. i need nobody but me myself, stronger. Allah, help me. huk3.

Nothing interesting about the confession. I wish there wasn't any. Erkk. I wish there is but from ehem2. gatal! haha. Hmm.. if there is, i'm not sure whether i'll be able to accept or fail to reject. x same ke maksudnye?? (tibe2 teringat test probstat.. huk3). Reason? As simple as 'xde ati' or in bahasa lembut as 'pintu ati belom terbukak utk itu'. Ngeh3.

How should i say this? I'm not redi for a relationship. And it's not my expertise, susah arr feeling2 ni.. And 1 more thing, it's flirting only my concern. Hoho.. bajet HOT! kidding jek, jgn amek ati.. hehe

How i wish... or only a d.r.e.a.m?? Let the time decide for us.. pray for the best! ;)

so many things to be shared but i'm soooooooo bz like heaven.. dis week gonna be the bziest week for the semester. 2 assignments to be submitted today (copied alredi), presentation lab process instrumentation (PI) & assignment gamelan1 (tomorrow - never started) and test process safety and loss prevention on friday (langsung x std pape lg). tahniah kpd mizah krn beraya sakan (walhal most of time aku spent kt umah jek, tercongok usha dinding. haha)

hmm.. rasenye nx week pon bz jgk. 2 projects & 1 assignment to be submitted on friday, test probstat pon on friday (jgk never started). so setiap minggu kirenye the bziest week for the semester la ek?? wah3~!

it's ok babe, student's life.. bile cuti, cuti la.. bile bz gilerr, kite gile-gile la bz.. lumrah hidup, ape nk heran.. ;) wait for the updates ye.. (kalo aku msh ade mood nk bercerita laa.. ngeh3)

Yerppp. It went well. Alhamdulillah. Preparing my self for next test which is tomorrow at 8.30 p.m.. but b4 that, kite tido dulu... hehe

My presentation for Separation Process Lab (Experiment: Characteristics of Reverse Osmosis Membranes) will start at 10 a.m this beautiful morning. About 2 hours to go.. Wish me luck deariessss~ ;)

Finally i get PURE water after a tiring Reverse Osmosis presentation ;)

Kids, no more questions please!

didn't i tell u i hate perfectionist. or a pusher. i really do. i hate them all. menyusahkan idop aku jek.. taw x dari semalam lg aku spent mase utk wat presentation slides tuh. yet masih x puas ati.. aku buat ngan berkobar-kobar tp tentibe kene cut slides. then suh check lg betol ke x.. kene check buku lg. aku dh la tgh layan muvi mase tuh (baru kejap td, x sampai 5 minit pon.. trus updet blog..hehe), rajen plak die msg aku suh on9 gtalk.

susah la kalo laki mcm ni.. x biase jumpe laki yg over rajen+pusher.. besenye jumpe laki yg ikot jek, yg suke kene push.. yg bile orang kate bwat itu, die bwat itu... aku lg suke manusia yg mcm tuh drpd aku saket ati kene push. aku taw la nk bwat keje aku.. setahu aku la kan, aku ni bkn kategori malas. and kalo bwat keje pon perfectionist gak sket2.. tp die ni mmg over la.. mengalahkan aku! arituh gedik sgt nk suh aku wat part discussion.. pastu bile aku dh bwat suke2 ati x puas ati ngan keje aku.. pastu siap mcm die jek yg nk present part aku.. miza, aku x kesah sbenarnye..

piiiiiraaaaaahhhhhhhh!! nape bukan sejak mase divide task lg kate 'aku x kesah sbenanye.. aku bole bwat discussion..' ini x, stiap kali repot, mesti muke aku ngan dayah jek yg kene bwat result n discussion. die suke2 ati wat intro, error&recommendation, summary ke.. pape jelah yg x kene pk.. yg kejenye copy paste jek.. bengang la nihh!!!

mesti dulu2 fatin pon rase gitu gak.. asek2 muke die jek yg bwat discussion. sabarlah ati, tuhan sedang menguji.. baru taw perasaan mereka.. huk3 T_T. and one more thing, napela mereka suke sgt berbincang pasal lab repot through gtalk? kalo pegi mengadap muke sorang2 xleh ke?? ape aku ni x lawa sgt ke smpai xnak jumpe wat diskusi bersama-sama?? T_T susah taw x diskass tru gtalk.. nk kene reka ayat lg.. nk kene taep lagi.. nk kene tekan enter lg.. nk tunggu org sane bace lg.. nk tunggu die reply lg.. leceh taw x.. LECEH!!

baru bercita-cita nk release sket. weekend aku kali ni mmg digunakan sepenuhnya utk keje2 skolah yg tertunggak.. (actually, bukan tertunggak, tp x sempat nk siapkan sbb byk sgt keje.. test lg, repot lg, bla.. bla..) smpaikan maen game pon asek kalah jek sbb otak dh terlalu fokus kt keje skolah (bole plak lagu tuh~)..huhu. aku hangen ni..

i know, presentation tuh pnting tp xyah la over sgt nk push aku. aku BENCI taw x.. aku x suke manusia yg push aku sbb setaw aku aku pon x suke push orang.. kali ni aku betol2 memahami perasaan org yg kene push. gilerrr saket ati.. gilerrrr benci.. gilerrr maken nk melawan.. ikot ati ni malas aku nk betolkan balik, buat dekkk jek.. biar padan muke!

yerrrppp.

busy like heaven~

yet i'm blogging.. hehe ;)

miss them damn muchhh

and most important: i miss the kueh-mueh kt kelantan.. kueh-mueh kat sini x sedap.. erkkk, sbenanye x kene ngan selera jek. hehe

hari sepro sedunia.. mungkin itu yg terbaek mendescribekan sepanjang hari sabtuku ini.. celik jek mate igt esemen sepro. lepas smayang subuh sume2 aku study sepro. ntah napela rajen sgt nk study sepro arini. walhal semalam baru abes test sepro. mungkin sbb frust sgt x smpat abes study 4 chapters utk test semalam kot.. tp aku xdela gile meroyan smpai g stadi bab yg dh lepas test smalam.. aku study bab yg sedang blaja skang: evaporation. bole tahan la bab ni, xdela susah mane.. (see, bile dh study xdenye susah pon... yg susah bile gi klas tanpa pengetahuan aka x bace lec note dulu). nk wat esemen kene bace lec note dulu, baru bole proceed wat esemen.. last2 tengah hari gak aku stat wat esemen.. gilerrrr lame studi~ (diselang-selikan dgn tido semestinya) hehe

then lepas zohor sambung wat presentation utk lab sepro yg last plak. dah la part discussion.. mati aku kene study sepro lg utk wat discussion. gilerrr la wat discussion kalo x taw pape.. nk mati?? dh la g.a (graduate assistant) tuh garang.. takut beta tgk muke akak g.a itu.. so kene la prepare bebetol, hrp2 xkene perli dgn ayat2 sinis lg spt: since you're not doing like engineer, bla bla.. yerrrpppp akak, we're engineer-to-be, belom taraf engineer lg.. kalo salah sile betolkan T_T. wat discussion punye la lame, ni pon x siap lg ni.. kalo ikut ati maw jek tido tp tu la masalah aku, terlalu determined. once kate nk bwat, mesti siapkan. gilerrr la camni. huk3.

oklah, nk smbung wat discussion utk my presentation. till then.

hmm.. sbenanye dh nk abes dah pon hari jumaat.. lg 16 minutes nk masuk hari sabtu.. memandangkan tibe2 jek 'hari ini hari jumaat' phrase crossed my mind so i put it as a title. hehe.

hecticness datang dan pergi.. one long week has just passed. what a relief! i'm glad it's over. but after the weekend ends, another hectic week to come. 2 weeks yg menggilakan i'd say. diriku masih tabah di sini kawan2ku, dun wori too much about me ok.. ;)

pejam celik pejam celik, sekejap jek sbenanye.. not reali a long week when it's come to friday. bile jumaat tiba, ayat2 femes yg sering kedengaran ialah: eh3, dh abes seminggu.. kejap je kan..

ye la, bile bz n byk keje yg perlu dibuat mmg rase kejap jek.. kalo xde keje nk dibuat seminggu tu rase cam bersamaan sebulan pulak.. contoh: tercongok jek kat umah bile cuti sem.. rase lame gile nk abes cuti.. tp bile dh dkt nk abes rase kejap la pulak, x puas duk umah lg.. sbenanye mls nk stat kelas.. hehe

hmm.. td gi iftar anjuran PETRONAS kt Masjid An-Nur. ramai gilerrr org kt sane.. yela, makan free sape xnak.. PETRONAS plak tu yg blanje.. hehe. Food kt sane ok la, sedap! nasi ujan panas+daging kicap+ayam gulai (kot.. tp xnmpak mcm gulai pon.. kari pon tidak.. jd apakah ia??) +apentahnamenye+buah2an+air sirap. panjang gilerr queue tunggu nk amek makanan. seb bek smpat mkn b4 isyak.. ye la, dh bosan kot asek beli food kt cafe.kalo pegi bazaar karang ade yg kene keracunan makanan utk kali ke-2 plak.. ish3~ dasat betol kene keracunan arituh. erkk.. aku x terok sgt, mereka agak terok la.. huhu.

moreh pon sedap. bubur n cucur udang. ade sorang hamba Allah ni nk tapaw bwk balik.. tp alhamdulillah, diberi petunjuk oleh Allah, x jd tapaw.. kalo tapaw jgk td, bole pecah perut tu bantai makan.. perut masing2 dh boncittt, tp nk jgk makan moreh.. haih~ nafsu makan yg dasat! haha

td niatnye after teraweh nk wat esemen. tp terbantut la plak bile dah ngadap benda alah ni. aku lemah sket bile ngadap laptop, mesti keje yg diplan x jd..kejap2 maen game.. kejap2 bace blog org.. kjp2 update blog.. so konklusinye, kalo ade plan nk wat keje [h/work@esemen@stdy] jgn la on laptop. tp masalah gak tuh sbb sume source aku nk wat keje ade dlm nehh.. adess, bagaimanakah solusinye?? behave! yerppp, behave mizah.. jgn overdose maen game/mengelamun/tido.. sjk akher2 ni, hobi baruku ialah tido.. pantang landing, sure lesap a.k.a terlelap atau lebih tepat lagi jenero ore klate kato.. hehe

ok lah, dh malas dh merapu kat sini.. pegi mandi lagi bagoss. syiokk mandi tgh2 malam gini.. tido pon lena je jap gi.. ok3. nite alllssss. muahhhhh :x

hello alllssss~ selamat berpuasa & selamat berbuka kpd those yg terlibat... dh separuh bulan dh kita berada dlm bulan ramadhan yg mulia ni.. dan aku masih berpuasa hingga ke saat ini.. alhamdulillah.. harap2 sgt tahun ni puasa penuh. hihi ;)

kali ni entry pasal me as a cook plak, as i mentioned b4.. hehe. kelihatan beberapa muka yg berkerut-kerut, tanda x caye.. ok3! u alllssss can buat muka x caye yg konon2nye comel itu n i gerenti muke2 comel korang tuh xde efek pon kt aku yg mula berjinak-jinak ngan dapur. konon2nye beta sungguh determine utk jd a cook. take note: a cook, bkn a chef ok! hihi.

sepanjang bulan pose ni kerap la jgk aku masuk dapur.. walaupon bkn utk masak, khidmat aku sgt diperlukan as a pengacau. hoho. [perlukah di mention kan sebegitu rupa?? jatuh standard i taw~ hikss] hmmm, not too bad la kan.. at least aku masuk dapur, ade inisiatif utk blaja masak. kpd tuan2 dan puan2 sekalian: aku x suke sgt masak sbb x minat la msk2 ni.. cam leceh jek. hihi. kat umah aku just tlg tgk je mak aku masak.. xpon tlg cuci pinggan mangkuk yg penuh sink tuh.. x pon tlg bakarkan ikan.. x pon tlg balik2kan ikan dalam kuali.. n mcm rutin ttp pon ade, kacau! haha..

kalo kt sini, aku tlg mereka masak. mereka yg dimaksudkan di sini ialah: my powerpuff girlfrenss la kan, sape lagi [wanie, eQin n peji] erkk, xde nama aimi sbb aimi pon tukang kacau gak.. haha. aimi, jgn marah.. nnt cpt kedut! hihi. antara menu yg aku smpat jadi pengacau atau pon tukang tengok ialah: nasik goreng yg sedap, dadih yg sedap, tomyam yg sedap, spegeti yg sedap tp masam sket (sbb aku kureng sket ngan masam2 ni..), telur goreng yg sedap, puding yg sedap,... erk.. tu je ke?? bajet nk list byk lg.. haha.

hmmm.. cane ni ek? i x minat masuk dapur, nnt bile kawen laki i nk makan ape?? mkn kt kedai bkn best sgt pon.. aku suke mkn kt umah tp sape nk masak? huk3~ aku sungguh kagum ngan abah aku yg suke mkn kt umah a.k.a die suke mkn masakan ma aku.. ade skali tuh mase tgh sembang2 ngan ma n abah, abah aku ade cite sal sorang member die yg pangkat tinggi gilerr.. n isteri member abah aku ni pon berpangkat tinggi gilerr jgk.. then mestila masing2 bz kan.. bile si laki balik umah, si isteri duk keje.. dan begitulah sebaliknye.. pastu si laki ni cam mengadu la kot kt abah aku.. die kate untung ade isteri yg x keje.. sbb bile blk umah ade org entertain, ade org tlg masakkan n bla bla bla.. abah aku mmg x suke mkn kt luar.. no wonder la aku ni xknal sgt mane2 restoran yg best kt kelantan tuh.. kt kb pon belom tentu aku taw~ buta jalan! hak3

so camne ni?? aku of cos la akan keje.. igt best sgt ke terperap kt umah? aku tgk ma aku hari2 slalu camtuh.. i mean slalu wat keje umah yg same la kan.. hari2 masak.. hari2 basuh baju.. hari2 basuh pinggan mangkuk.. hari2 kemas umah.. hari2 bla bla bla.. aku slalu gak tanye ma aku, x bosan ke ari2 asek wat keje same?? die kate ape nk bosannye, dh mmg keje die.. wah~! kagum sungguh beta.. kalo nk keje yg extreme, aku xleh jd surirumah yg berjaya.. kalo nk keje jgk n nk jgk jaga umah, so kena la keje yg lite jek cam lecturer ke.. tp aku nk keje yg agak mencabar.. cam bosan jek jd lecturer.. tp cam best gak kalo jd lecturer cam dr. kuzi...

camni la.. b4 kawen aku keje suke2 ati aku nk keje ape.. i mean kejar cita2 dulu, keje extreme ke, mencabar ke.. suke ati la.. then lepas kawen baru pk pasal lecturing.. hak3. tp hati aku ni berbisik, keje la dlm industry.. keje kt plant ke.. gali minyak ke.. pape jela, yg bkn keje duk tercongok atas kusi.. huhu. mohon Allah beri petunjuk..

erkk.. terkeluar pasal kawen plak.. kpd peji yg tagged beta, kalo beta rajen beta jawab la soklan2 itu.. tp tu la, kawen2 ni kene plan betol3. tp kan, lmbat lg kot.. so juz wait n see la.. n dun wori, i'll invite u. prepare adiah besar3 taw~ sponsor honeymoon ke.. hihi.

so, conclusionnye: aku perlu blaja masak dari sekarang. dan juga berdoa dpt laki yg x cerewet pasal makan2. dan juga, dpt laki yg pandai masak jgk.. xyah la aku terkial-kial sorang diri nk masak kt dapur.. dan juga, suke tlg wat keje2 umah.. [terserlah beta seorang yg pemalas!] hihi

ooopppppssss! ni adek aku la.. helmie~ [versi matured]

i bet mine lg SEMAT! hoho

Dah hamper 2 minggu kete ni berada di bawah jagaan aku.. still rase cam x caye abah aku dh hand over kete ni kt aku.. well, u know my dad. oh, u don't know.. hehe. my dad sayang sgt kt i. winks. actually abah aku x konfiden sgt ngan my driving skill (yg aku sndiri pon x bape konfiden ;))

dah hamper setahun aku merayu-rayu kt abah aku mintak nk bawak kete ke UTP tp my dad kept saying NO! can u imagine how this anak manja's face turned with that BIG NO?? for ur information (FYI), muka aku ni x pandai menipu. kalo frust tu mmg nmpak muka frust. kalo penat x yah cakap la, sume org x brani tego.. nmpk sgt2! x caye, tanye la my powerpuff girlfrenss.. hehe.

smpaikan nk menitis air mata aku ni mase mintak nk kete. abah aku plak suke2 ati bangkitkan isu kete tu dpn nenek aku yg mane bile die stat bercakap, mesti ade unsur2 kasih sayang.. bayangkan, makhluk yg frust ni dilecture free oleh nenek aku. ayat die lebeh kurang gini la: 'kami bkn xnak bg kete sbb sayangkan duit. mok (nenek) tahu abah byk duit, buleh bli kete utk mizah tp kami lebeh sayangkan mizah. duit tu boleh cari, tp mizah sorang jek. kalo jd pape nnt, sape yg nyesal?? kami jugak..' saat ni probability air mata jatuh = 0.987 tp seb bek aku smpat cover, pandang ke tmpat laen (walhal mase tuh abah aku pon dh notice muka nk nanges yg cam ayam lemau tuh).

sayang sgt mereka kt aku.. bahagia kan bile rase disayangi. aku sememangnye bahagia! walaupon ade sorang hamba Allah ni claims aku garang sgt smpai xde laki nk mendekat ngan aku, aku tetap bahagia. i live my own life, so should you! i have lotsss of powerpuff girlfrens. do u? no kan?? stakat ade sorang boyfren tp sket kawan, bahagia sgt ke?? bangga?? nk menunjuk ngan aku? huh!! smpai mati aku igt.. u messed up with wrong girl la.. tentibe emo plak. tutup cite!

berbalik ngan cite asal. ni sbenarnye kete abah aku.. die beli tahun 2001 lg, mase waja mule2 kuar dulu.. dh lame kan, so mungkin abah aku dh bosan drive waja, sbb tu pass kt aku. kidding3! duet kete sume dh abes bayar, so slamat la aku, xyah sambung bayar.. aikk, td kate abah syg sgt, nk kene bayar gak ke??

pelik? x perlu.. abah aku mmg mcm tu. die x manjakan anak2 dgn harta dunia.. nak pape beli sndirik! jgn harap la tunjuk2 then abah bayar. tak akan! i mean kt sini, benda2 spt kehendak, bkn keperluan.. kalo keperluan mmg la abah yg bayarkan.. spt henset aku yg dulu berharga seribu lebeh tu, aku yg bayar.. bwat lesen pon fully sponsored by mara taw (aku yg bayar la mksudnye). b4 this, abah nk bli kete 2nd hand jek kt aku, tp aku jgk yg kene bayar.. fuhh~ seb bek x jd beli kete 2nd hand tuh.. kalo x, sengket beta sepanjang tahun. huk3 T_T

thanks abah, ajar kami x bermewah sgt.. at least, mizah taw cane rase susahnye nk dptkan somethg yg kite nk... bak kate pepatah, rezeki x dtg bergolek (erkk.. ye ke? cam pelek je bunyinye.. pape jelah~) dan tu jgk bwat mizah sedar x sume manusia ni bertuah, boleh dpt ape yg diorang nk.. bersyukur dgn ape yg ade, hidup bersederhana.. love u abah!! mmmmuuuuaaaaahhhhhxxxxxxxxxx~ :x

1st day aku bwk kete ni, aku rasmikan dgn terlanggar somethg kt tmpat parking. cane nk describe ye?? kan kt tmpat parking tuh mcm ade penghadang (konon2nye limit parking la.. utk tayar depan. ade kan??) over terkedepan and then boooomm!! TER ok, TER.. x pandai bajet lg nk parking kete. tp x terok pon. hmm.. somethg aku realized, dat bumper (bumper ke namenye) cam terluka sket.. tp aku x sure, mmg mcm tu ke sbb aku langgar benda alah tuh.. nnt blk clarify ngan abah.. huk3

oh ye, some of my frens said that x nmpak driver bile aku bawak kete tuh. fine! aku kecik, kete besar. then aku kate, bkn salah aku sbb kecik tp salah kete sbb besar.. bole ke gitu?? haha.. pape jelah~ kt UTP ni, masalah parking amat crucial. disadvantage for me yg x reti parking sisi.. kete dh la besar, space antara 2 kete tu muat2 je masuk. x brani la aku, laen kali la blaja ngan eQin n wanie.. hehe. ade la 2-3 kali aku pusing2 villages ni nk cari parking but end up park kt v4, kt tmpat tapak convo tuh. gilerr jauh.. sabo jela!

oh ye, alang2 dh ade kete ni, rajen la sket gi teraweh. hehe. erk don't get me wrong ok, bkn nk menunjuk-nunjuk rajen g teraweh pon.. tp nk cite bahawa abah aku pon dpt saham gak, bg kete ni kat aku yg memanfaatkannya utk benda2 yg baek.. insyaAllah..

hmm.. ade sorang membe aku tuh, bile taw aku nk bwk kete, cpt2 chop nk blk raye ngan aku.. walhal mase tuh aku x bgtaw pon kt die yg aku nk bwk kete.. ade la tuh, angin bertiup kencang menyampaikan berita.. x kesah la kan, x jauh mane pon umah die ngan umah aku. tp aku rase agak kepelikan la kan, tentibe jek msg aku kate nk balik skali. die xtaw ke masih tergiang-ngiang kt telinga aku ni ape yg die ckp pasal xde laki brani dekat ngan aku sbb garang sgt??? die igt aku x taw kot.. aku ade informer ok, so next time beware! aku reply aku xtaw lg, kalo ade backup driver, aku blk la ngan kete.. kalo x, blk ngan bus jek.. tp cam sayang jek nk tinggal kete kt sini, 10 hari tu cuti..

then mase aku duk cari2 backup driver tuh die push aku.. bukan tolak ok.. die kate x konfiden kalo adik aku bwk kete (sbb aku blk ngan adik aku, so mase kt jalan berbukit bukau tuh aku pass la stereng kt adik aku, sbb adik aku lebeh cekap) sbb die xde lesen. fine! aku taw adik aku xde lesen, sbb tu la aku cari backup driver. pastu bole plak die kate: balik raye ni ramai org, kalo kite x langgar org pon org yg langgar kite' fine, aku taw die risaukan keselamatan kami tp bole x guna ayat yg lebeh elok? yg x perlu gune word 'langgar'.. abah aku cukup pantang dgn dat word, so aku pon mesti la ikot abah aku kan.. same2 berpantang..

kpd mereka yg dh taw kisah sebenar, xyah bace la part pasal membe tuh, kang terkategori sbg mengumpat plak.. dh la bulan pose ni.. bg yg xtaw, bole bace sbb aku x mention name kan, n korang pon x taw sape dat membe.. tp honestly, aku bkn nk mengumpat.. nk meluahkan jek. mungkin bole jd ikhtibar bwat korang, jgn ikot perangai mcm dat membe tu..

sebenarnye, bile bawak kete ni.. aku rase maken x best. bukannye ape, dulu2 aku slalu tumpang dat membe g klas ngan moto die tp skang aku g klas ngan kete x ajak pon die.. aku rase sedih aku terpaksa bertindak mcm ni.. xde orang pakse aku supaya x ajak die tp my lips just can't bcoz i know my heart won't agree ngan ajakan itu. tp sbg manusia berhati dan berperut, aku rase tindakan aku tu x bagus. not nice omputis kato.. tp aku xnak hati aku membengkak lg.. cukuplah. biarkan jd sejarah sume kenangan x best itu.. i'm sorriiii~! and i won't turn back. aku harap tindakan aku ni x tergolong dlm golongan org2 yg dimurkai Allah, sbb seolah-olah memutuskan silaturrahim sesama insan. aku xde niat sebegitu tp aku tersepit. tp kami masih kawan, walau x seperti dulu. i can't be the one i used to be bcoz i've made a promised to go on, and never turn back.

makkk aiii~~ dh lenguh jari-jemari beta. better stop now. jari2 ni masih diperlukan utk assignment rxn and sepro.. oh ye, nx entry pasal me as a cook plak.. bole?? hehe

Eh eh.. salah orang ;) gamba candid wanie~~

Hepi besday peji~ be matured ok!

it's 6th Ramadhan already. time fly when we're having so much fun. yeap, even bz gilerr but i'm enjoying my life to the fullest in here, lovely Toronto. Oppps, Tronoh jek!

there're lotsssa things to be shared here but the bzness is killing me. about the tak kesampaian dream, my forever-loved bro, my great abah, my loving mummy, my powerpuff girlfrensss, me as a cook, bla..bla..bla... oh ye, about that member too, but it's better for me to keep silent (x pasal2 tambah dosa di bulan ramadhan yg mulia ini..) T_T

hmm.. i'm working on an entry entitled 'a boyfren' but i don't know when it'll be published since i'm bz like heaven now with 3 tests to go next week. kalo ade rezeki maka akan terpost la entry itu.. kalo x, simpan wat kenangan dlm draft. huk3

Life's tough but i'm tougher!

Hectic. Penat. Tabah!

Keep struggling bebeh~

Oh ye, I won't look at you anymore bcoz i've got another boyfren. Not as easy as 123 i'd say, but i'm trying my very best to let go of u.. just so you know..

Tattoo. You're still a part of everything I do..

Just So You Know
by Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

(Repeat ^)
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

(Chorus)
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around; I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

(Chorus)
[Bridge]
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...Been waiting here

(Chorus)

i wonder how come 2 strangers can survive living together for the rest of their lives.. n i'll pray that it last forever... happily ever after

Because you live
by Jesse Mccartney

staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
its the end of the world in my mind
then your voice pulls me back
like a wake-up call

ive been looking for the answer
somewhere
i couldnt see that it was right there
But now i know, what i didnt know

chorus
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
because you live girl
my world....
has twice as many stars in the sky

it's all right. i survived. i'm alive again
' cause of you, made it throughevery storm
what is life? whats the use?
if you're killing time

i'm so glad i found an angel
someone...
who was there when all my hopes fell
i wanna fly looking your eyes

repeat chorus
because you live... i live
because you live, there's a reason why
i carry on when i lose the fight
i want to give what you've given me
always...

repeat chorus
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
because you live girl
my world....
has everything i need to survive
because you live... i live
i live

inilah miss bedazzled mase v3 dinner~ u deserve it!

comel n cun [kate caption yg ditulis syazana. winkssss]

i like this pic. so sweet kan.. ;)

pride and proud [begitulah captionnye kt frenster - cilok gamba]

Nk tulih ape ye? hmm.. awek cun ni la yg ajar aku maen squash smpai addicted. byk benda yg die introduce kt aku yg buatkan aku jd addicted. lelaguan spt tattoo by jordin sparks, leavin by jesse mccartney, drops of jupiter by train, bla, bla... series/muvies spt my girl, ape lg ye?? lupe la.. sbb jrg layan muvi. hehe.

we love nite walk. syok gellls nite walk. sejuk, tenang n nyaman. bile nite walk ni ape lg, gossiping la.. kire bintang.. chatting all nite.. bile lg ye? soooo bz lately. huk3.

i have lotssss to share here but i've sooooo many things to do. writing this takes me few days, approaching a week if i not mistaken. see how bzzzzzz i am. well3~ engineer to be, cam ni lerrr.. kene jadi tukang tilik, evaluate probability of fatalities+injuries+bla bla.. ade gak subjek utk jd tukang tilik, canggih sungguh! lab repotssss lg.. esemens n tests.. hoyeah~~

p/s: u should be proud, this is my 50th entry n i'm writing about us. hehe ;)