Lying on bed, ready to sleep.

Flashing back today and yesterday

A lovely weekend; fully occupied with the house chores.

The feeling is undescribable. Bahagia gila rasa apabila sedang mengemas. Lebih bahagia apabila sudah siap dan hasilnya fuhhh rasa macam nak bagitahu satu dunia "aku dah siap kemas umah, tengoklah weh rumah aku!"

Indoor type of person.

Akhirnya berjaya basuh kereta all by my self (setelah hampir sebulan tak basuh dan menampakkan rupa yang tak lalu dipandang dan juga memalukan bila terasa macam ada orang pandang dengan pandangan semacam "kereta ni baru keluar bengkel ke?"). Serius rasa macam nak melompat dan peluk cium setelah misi basuh kereta tercapai.

Weekend ini sungguh membanggakan aku dan membuktikan "I can do it. Keep it up girl!'

Esok kerja. Corporate shirt dah siap iron. Tolonglah bangun awal esok. Tolonglahhhh.

So, I better fall asleep now :p

Tata everyone!

Assalamu'alaikum wrt..

Antara sebab best kerja di Kerteh. Walaupun Kerteh semacam banyak kekurangan, kelebihan yang satu inilah dijadikan sebab untuk stay. Best gila okay lepas kerja lepak tepi pantai menghadap ombak. Layan angin pantai. Walaupun sorang-sorang. Best gila sampai tak tahu nak cerita macam mana. Kena rasa sendiri. Alhamdulillah tuhan bagi aku rasa nikmat ini. Banyak lagi benda yang perlu disyukuri dari ditangisi. Bermillion sebab untuk happy. You deserve to be happy in your own way. Sebab bahagia itu letaknya di hati bukan pada material. You define happy. It's you; you choose to be happy or unhappy. It's you, bebeh!

(Of course I choose to be happy)

Enjoy what you do.

Live your life.

Smile always; even your opismet told you that you're wearing a curtain instead of tudung.

Be cool even your opismet like to dog you (HAHA) Read: menganjeng.

I need to struggle more to fit local's mind set.

I have to lower my ego. Not good for sustaining relationship with opismet.

Yeapp bukan senang nak pandai; long way to go.

This is the price I have to pay for choosing the path I took.

And oh ya! I chose to go with the flow. U-turn next time.

Dahsyat betul gadis kolej di pub!

Eh I bukan pergi pub pun. Tu tajuk iklan yang kelihatan depan mata I sekarang. Dahsyat betul iklan.

Hello hello lama tak jengah ke sini. Baru balik jogging dari tepi persisiran pantai Paka. Jogging sensorang jeww. Jogging bukan sebab nak kurus sebab I tak gemok pon, tembam sikit jewww :p Jogging sebab nak sehat, badan I nak pakai lama lagi ni (insyaallah). Lama lagi I nak hidup, I baru 23 next month baru cukup 24. Eh, bakal 24 dalam masa sebulan. Wow!

I ingat nak kawen masa umur 24, hopefully tercapai azam tahun ni nak kawen. Hikhikk :p

Eh tadi cerita pasal jogging kan. Nah tengok gambar sebagai bukti..

Errr tak tahu lah nanti gambar keluar kat mana, takleh nak adjust location gambar trough blogger-droid.

Hampeh betul takleh connect internet kat laptop pakai telepon. Sek-sek IT tempat kerja I pasti ada solution sebab I pakai laptop company, haruslah ada restriction. Takkanlah I nak angkut laptop sendiri menjadikan I lebih kaya ada 2 laptop kat rumah. Tak larat aih nak pakai 2 laptop. Ada 1 laptop opis ni pun kadang2 tak terpakai. Balik dari opis campak je mana2 tempat yang nampak clear kat dalam rumah. HAHA. Tu sebab (disebabkan) semangat kurang kebelakangan ni, tu pasal maen campak je. Kalau semangat lebih, semua usb kat laptop aku cucuk key design. Konon mogok ah takmaw kerja lebih masa. Work Life Balance! Hoho.

Ever heard about The Road Not Taken; the poem by Robert Frost?

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear,

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I marked the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads

 on to way

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference. 

Setelah hidup hampir setahun sebagai design engineer, I masih confuse dengan apa yang I nak dalam hidup I. Is this (the life I'm living now) really what I want in life? Fikir dalam2, I macam tak pernah buat keputusan dalam hidup I. I just go with the flow. Go with the flow is not a crime, instead it's a good thing to do. At least I'm a design engineer (who still confused, with flaws here and there).

Someone told me that I still can make a U-turn (if I wish to). Will I?

Honestly, I'm not happy with my life now.

Money can't buy happiness but money is everything.

Everything.

Ermmm. Is it normal to cry over something like "Aku xde duettt T_T"

Makin tua makin menjadi-jadi perangai, bukan makin matang. Haishhh!

Every month I struggle to save some of my salary for the so called masa depan yang gemilang.

Struggle ok!

Thus I think I need to mary a billionaire for the same reason Maya Karin did in Pisau Cukur.

Me myself taknak jadi billionaire sebab I believe it's not easy. Nak jadi thousandaire pun susahhh. HAHA.

Unless I hit the jackpot. Harap2 Jack terlupa bawak balik his pot or left it somewhere I can easily hit. HAHA kuasa dua.

I'm waiting for a friend. Inilah satu-satunya landmark yang diberikan. Sebbbaekk tepi jalan je tak kene masuk mana- mana lorong yang I tak familiar.

Hujan rahmat di pagi Jumaat yang barakah. Rajin-rajinlah berdoa mudah-mudahan mustajab :)

Kepada yang balik kampung untuk beraya (eceh perasan chinese pulakk), especially me and my housemates, safe journey everyone!

Kawan I ni kannnn.. Kate 10 minit tapi I dah habes 1 entry pon tak sampai-sampai lagi. Haaha. Short entry je pon~ :p

Im struggling to sleep.

Mata sudah pedih terkebil-kebil dari tadi cuba tidur tapi tetap tak mahu lena.

Oh patutlah lunch tadi minum nescafe o pengg. Yes you read me right. Tengah hari tadi tapi efeknya masih kuat. Fuhhh bilakah kesannya akan hilang? In the meanwhile, i akan merepek di sini. HAHA.

Esok balik kampung yeay yeay. Cuti seminggu yeay yeayyyyy. Kerja dah siap yeayy yeayyy buleh bergembira tanpa ragu yeayy yeayyyy. Buleh bercuti tanpa gangguan yeay yeayyyy. Buleh makan best besttt yeayy yeayyy. Mak masak sedappppp yeay yeayy.

Ok, annoying. HAHA.

Tiba-tiba teringat pepatah pasal kambing dan harimau dalam previous previous entry, dah lupa pulak tajuk dia apa. Tapi yang I ingat I kat tepi pantai masa tuhh. Ahhha! Luahan tepi pantai. Bingggggo!

OK. So kenapa dengan pepatah Melayu pasal kambing dan harimau tersebut?

"Masuk kandang kambing mengembek masuk kandang harimau mengaum".

Kesian kat kambing. Kambing masuk kandang harimau kambing kena baham, harimau masuk kandang kambing pun kambing kena baham. Tak adil sungguh pepatah ini. HAHA :P

Tadi tengok cite hindustan kat B4U; Hum Tum Aur Ghost. I bukanlah nak buat summary or sinopsis cerita kat sini. Cumanya ada part kelakar luar cerita yang berlaku tadi. Tengah syok layan hindustan tiba-tiba housemate I join sekali tengok TV.

Si gadis yang tak tahu hujung pangkal cerita lalu bertanya "Dia boleh nampak hantu ke?"

Then I replied "Aah".

"Dia nampak muka hantu yang buruk ke?"

"Tak lah. Hantu Melayu je muka buruk".

Hahaha kami gelak. Sebab vampire hot kot~ Kalau tak layan series The Vampire Diaries memang lah tak tahu puntianak itu hensem jugak gojess. Haha. Kelakar gila cerita Puntianak Kampung Batu yang Erra Fazira, Didie Alias ngan Rozita Che Wan jadi puntianak. Serius kelakar bila compare dengan TVD. Serius pecah perut. Tapi nasib baek tak terburai isi perut. HAHA.

My DAK dah upgrade jadi MPV sebab selalu angkut 8 orang awok design pegi lunch. Gilalah bole muat 6 orang kat seat belakang. Dah lah my DAK lowered. Habeslah kalau abah I tahu. Tapi abah cool je kot kalau tahu 3 penumpang extra itulah bayi dalam kandungan.HEHE.

Bos I sudah kelihatan sakit kepala memikirkan masa depan apabila mereka cuti bersalin nanti. Dahsyatlah diorang. Macam mana bole planning pregnant beramai-ramai. Total ibu mengandung dalam department adalah 5/8. Dan balance 3 orang yang tak mengandung adalah perempuan single. Winter musim mengawan agaknya. Haha :p

Cukup-cukuplah merepek-repek tengah-tengah malam ni. Ayat bahasa melayu salah sebab ada lebih dua kata ganda dalam satu ayat. Marahlah cikgu shah kalau baca entry ni. Nasib baiklah dia tak baca (I assume).

Kena cuba tidur dengan lebih gigih lagi.

Selamat malam hari yang penattt :)

Hahahampehhh tak sempat abeskan entry dah terpublish post. Malas nak on laptop, update dari hp pon boleh~ That's whylah terpublish post tanpa disedari. Hahahampehhh!

Lalu dah takde mood nak buat karangan. Tadi tu gambar I snap pagi tadi sebelum bertolak ke tempat pekerjaanku. Tembam I know. It's ok tembam pun sebab tadi diorang puji I cantik. Hehe :)

Alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah pemilik sekalian alam. I tak layak mendapat pujian sebab segalanya milik Allah. Terima kasih ya Allah bagi pinjam. Terima kasih ya Allah masih beri peluang untukku bernafas, menumpang kasih di perantauan. Terima kasih ya Allah jadikan aku seorang yang lebih kuat. Terima kasih ya Allah permudahkan hari ini. InsyaAllah, hari-hari mendatang juga semoga dipermudahkan. Amiin :)

Bahagia letaknya di hati; maka jagalah hati. Berhati-hati menjaga hati :))

Walaupun I'm pretty sure that there is no need for an update,

Is it me to blame?

What did I do so wrong?

So it's true; that pepatah Melayu.

All kindness done in the past vanish because of one 'tiny evil'.

I've tried to prove that wrong but I found no supporting event. So I guess it really is not wrong.

Sad to admit that.

I feel like I don't belong here. I don't really know what have I built in these 8 months period; whether it is a bridge or a thick wall.

Analysing my innerself I believe it's not a bridge. And why did I built that wall?

It's hard to not be yourself to please others. And I'm kinda tired of it.

Masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang harimau mengaum. I know what this pepatah mean, I know very well. Logically speaking, how can that kambing mengaum like harimau does? That kambing might be able to mengaum but of course kambing is kambing will never sound like harimau.

Please note that I'm neither kambing nor harimau :p

To someone who 'might' concern; I'm sick of you. Sick like I might resign if I'm thinking like a coward or like someone with no vission (ececehhh). I have dignity, I have my ego. I'll stay until I get what I want. I promise myself to stay strong, to shine brighter. You're not that 'massive' I would give up my ambition/future. I'll stay strong so you watch out.

It's already maghrib and I should get going.

Enjoy your dinner everyone!